I'm content.

I described myself as content earlier. This was because at church, many people were experiencing God at work right there right then in their lives.
I dismissed my missing of communication with God to fact that my life is fine, it's just chugging along smoothly. There have been no huge "wows" and there have been no huge "ows" in my life recently. I thank God everyday through my words, actions and prayer for this content life I'm living at the moment.

As I walked back from Church, I yearned right there right then to serve God solely. I want to live on the edge for Him. I want to have the "ows" and "wows" of this life as I run through rain or sun with God. I want to serve Him! I can not express how much my soul longs to serve God! I just feel as though I'm not doing enough!

Yet when I look at what I do already, God is in all my activity. I talk about Him so much!
Can I do more than this? Or is God just still keeping me patient?

How long left?

"Just keep swimming"
When you swim you use you're whole body. You breathe in pattern and sync with your body movements. You swim through a substance that is molecularly incomprehensible and creatively majestical.

"Just keep swimming"
When you live, you use you're whole body, every physical part, every part of your soul, every part of your mind. You breathe, sometimes gasp, for that precious, refreshing, living breath that God breathes into you. You breathe in sync with your life movements; desperate times, restful times, times of pattern and consistency. You live life in a world that is physically wierd, creatively majestical, divinely designed.
Its a privilege, a challenge, an adventure, a mission. Its temporary.

Who invented self-checkouts?

Tuesday morning I got up, showered, got dressed, had breakfast by myself, walked into town, went to Tesco, picked up the Financial Times, two bottles of Robinson's Sugar Free Orange Squash (the ones with the blue caps) went to the self checkout, scanned my items, put my £5 note in the machine (that was all I had left of my weekly £20 from the night before) picked up my bag of items, my receipt, my small change, walked out the shop, watched the Audi RX-8 zoom in front of me, walked back to my flat, had a drink of my newly purchased Orange Squash then went to my room and starting reading my paper.

In those few early hours I spoke to no one.

I was surrouned by people in different situations who I'm sure without hesitation would have passed a few words in response to my starting of a conversation.

Philippians 4:5
"Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near."

To all.

Who do I show my character to? Who knows the meaning behind my character?

A simple conversation:
"Good morning, wonder what's going on in the financial world this morning. How are you?"

"Very well thank you. Although I'm sure you won't find much positive news in there! How are you?"

"I'm... actually... very peaceful this morning. I don't need to find positive news in here- I know all the Good News I need to know. Have a great morning, God bless."


Then I suppose it could carry on:
"Wait a minute, what do you mean..."

Is this just the perfect morning conversation, or can it really happen?
There's only one way to find out- keep popping down to the shops each morning to get the Financial Times! Moreover, pray for the opportunity of this conversation to arise.